For the Days that Break You

Because sometimes, surviving is the win

Song of the Day

Rescue by Lauren Daigle

Life is exhausting.

Some days will break you until you are nothing but silent tears and a heavy chest. And the people around you - even the ones who love you the most - don’t always see you.

So, how do you float on the days that try to drown you?

This is something that I have been pondering for some time now, and the answer I keep finding is this. Find the little pockets of joy that peek through the cracks.

This is not easy to do when your vision is muddied by tears and your heart is constricted by the pain. It is not easy to swim when your limbs are seized by trauma.

But it is necessary.

On the days that are hard to get through, it is necessary to survive. It is okay to be hopeless for a moment, to cry, to scream, to be angry. But we must never become too comfortable in our hopelessness. It is life’s job to make us suffer, and it is our job to turn that suffering into something better, something worth looking forward to.

And I know that’s not easy to hear when you are at your lowest moments, but it is the truth that we all deserve to hear to pull us out.

I have been having some low moments lately. They often come out of nowhere, and they’ll push me off track for hours, wandering through memories that no longer serve me. There are days when trauma torments me so much, and I retreat into myself. I am lost for hours and hours, escaping into my mind and existing in a world that isn’t real. But I’m learning how to stay, how to face the pain without allowing it to consume me, and how to let go of the past. It does me no good to hold on to what was.

Still, there are times when I question if it is fair to let go of the little girl I once was. I wonder if it's fair to leave her behind and keep moving towards the woman I’m becoming.

But maybe healing me isn’t abandoning her. Maybe in my healing, I am choosing better for who I was, who I am, and who I will be.

So if you are reading this on a day that is particularly hard. I want you to remember that survival is enough. It is as much of a win as overcoming. There is nothing wrong if all you did today was breathe.

Life doesn’t require perfection, it just needs you to be human.

Wishing you Peace